Wednesday, February 23, 2011

t is for too much to tell...

t is for too much... i really have missed participating in alphabet thursdays! i am happy to have a minute this week to get caught up... but i seriously do have too much to tell, so i will just start with the t word triumphant. i had intended to make a lot of changes in the new year and i have indeed been triumphant in removing myself from negative forces in my life... in removing myself from such forces so quickly i seem to find myself living with my children in sanctuary. now some people would call it a homeless shelter or a safe house for victims of domestic violence but the people here call it a sanctuary which i love!
honestly i was not looking forward to coming here but now that i am here and have had time to heal and refocus. i love that i have had this opportunity and am savoring every minute! i have been able to look at things i have been carrying for a long time. i have been able to let go of things that have been stopping me from growing as a woman. i have been able to let go of ideas that i have held on to than have been holding me back... ideas like betrayal and grief, loss and abandonment, inadequacy and shame...
today i am able to look forward to my future as a clean slate and not be held back by fears which no longer serve me... today i am grateful for the blessings i have been given and the chance i have here to be surrounded by loving people who talk every day about living honestly and nurturing my authentic self... my future is looking very different to me now and i am looking forward to the chance to share the ideas i have heard here in this loving safe place where the universe has led me... this message has been brought to you by jenny matlock and the letter t, which is all about terrific triumphs through the test of times... loving and healing blessings to you all!


  1. My heart is full of joy for you old friend - full!

  2. Ok I love you! Your so inspiring and amazing! I cant tell you how proud of you I am! Well done you as Griff would say!

  3. Wow what a post - sounds like you are on an amazing journey,thank you for sharing it with us!

  4. It great that you have managed to find your peace.. visiting from alpha thursday.

  5. I am glad to read that you have found sanctuary for you and your daughter.

  6. congratulations to you ... for having the courage to explore the authentic you ... and to grow

  7. As a forensic nurse for 21 years, in the field of domestic violence, sexual assault and child sexual abuse, I have met many courageous women who have struggled to make their way forward, out of their personal hell. Congratulations to you. How wonderful that you found such support and a feeling of love in the "sanctuary" you chose. None of us deserves to live in an unhappy and demoralizing situation. Here's to healing.

  8. love your sentiment on t,

    stay blessed.

    Greetings, Happy Firday! Blessings…

    Friendship Awards, Enjoy!
    Thanks for the support, You Rock!

  9. Courage my dear. I stayed in first marriage for 19 years...fear, blackmail, manipulation...the evil I knew being more comfortable than anything that could possibly exist outside of the marriage.

    Somehow taking charge of my own life and recognizing that I could not heal my first husband...that his damage was too deep and too dark and to insidious to address was the freeing part for me.

    I am still overwhelmed in dealing with the past sometimes, but I choose to take it out, bit by bit, and try to forgive or understand it in small doses. The whole woven cloth of the abuse and mental illness can suffocate me in an instant if I allow it to.

    Find solace in knowing that others are with you on this journey to find happiness and peace with circumstances.

    Sometime I would like to share what happened in the journey 'after' the change.

    For now, sleep peacefully, love yourself, forgive yourself for whatever part you feel you 'own' and find sunshine everyday.

    Thank you for a brave post on our little journey through Alphabe-Thursday's letter "T".

    If you wish to e-mail me private or talk I am available to you. My e-mail is jennymatlock at cox dot net. If you could put 'about my AT link' in the subject line I will watch for it should you need me.

    Hugs, hope, healing.